It has been said, "if anything you're doing in life is not what you should be doing...stop. Life is way to short to continue in the wrong direction, but the longer that you do, the less time you will have to travel in the right direction."

What has been done, cannot be undone.  I have always said that life's greatest lessons are learned by experience and mistakes.  In my most recent lesson, I have learned that I must stop and find my "right direction" because all of my childhood hopes and dreams for my future lie along my path.

I deserve someone who knows my favorite color, who knows what makes me curl up next to him out of love, and what makes me curl up next to him out of fear.  I deserve someone who would travel to the ends of the earth to spend time with me, (or at least want to).  I want someone who is passionate about everything they do, and I will support it 110%, but I also want someone who is just as passionate about me.  I want someone who can spend time with my closest friends and for them to love just as much as I do, and I wanted them to celebrate if we decide to last a lifetime, and I even want for them to stand beside us as witnesses.  I want to have and raise children together, to build a home together, and to grow old together.  I want the complete package, not just bits and pieces as a last minute attempt to fulfill all of my goals.

What I want can be summed up in the lyrics which led me to realize that I am not in the right time, the right place, or with the right person.

I want one thousand years!

Heart beats fast

Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more